For this assignment, we were asked to examine what is truly important to us. Well I don't really want to be monotonous in what I describe. I am a religious person. I've had a couple tragic deaths in my family and family is important. I could go into all that, but I feel like it's been talked about a million times before, so I won't. Maybe the concept I will be discussing will justify why I want to do something different.
I decided to discuss a concept that I have really just recently come to peace with and has changed the shape of my soul and helped me mature a little (or maybe it was really the other way around?) A few months ago, I discovered the values of being who I truly am on the inside and not being someone else. It's something that many people tell you your whole life, but it's over done so much it doesn't always sink in. At leas for me it didn't. So here's the story:
I was always different growing up. I liked to do what I wanted to do despite what anyone else thought. After a while though, I started feeling ashamed of that side of me. Some people treated me like a freak (my boss at work even told me I was kind of freaky). I got weird looks from people all the time and look down on by others. I didn't want that to happen anymore. So, I tired to conform. I was always thinking to myself would a normal girl do that?, and I would act according to that. It worked. I was more "accepted" and people quit looking at me weird and treating my like a freak. I was more respected by those who looked down on me. All seemed well. It wasn't for a while that I realized that in reality, I was dying on the inside. I hid away what made me unique.
I was watching a TV show with a character who was spontaneous, lively, funny, very energetic, loved to meet new people and a little bit odd. I fell in love with this character and couldn't stop watching. I didn't know why at first, but after a while, it hit me. That character's personality was close to my own before I changed. If I loved this character so much for who he was, why was I hiding those same qualities? It was that moment, that I decided that I was going be who I am and not care what others think. It was one of the best decisions I ever made. I freed myself that day and that's why I hold the concept of being who you are no matter what anyone else thinks in high regard.
For the "make something" part of the project, I went out and bought one of those girly magazines, the ones that have the airbrushed models and tell you what to wear and how to look and act. In my opinion, those magazines are one of the worst things a girl can read. I believe they make girls into shallow flat people because they put looks and sex on a pedestal. I never buy them, but for this project, I bought one, cut lots of little pieces out and made a mosaic type picture of myself out of it. It will remind me that when the world bombards me with the images and ideas of what it believe I should be, I take what it gives me shape my own personality. I will do what makes ME happy.
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